Camera doesn't work.. no money for a new one. Damn my tv for breaking.. and me, needing insurance. I need that cam.
I've been writing new songs, and some are ready for recording. Can't wait for that. Would be nice to film myself singing them, so that I don't need more money everytime I need to record stuff. (Studio time is expensive :S)

I am.. miserable right now. So I guess I should be trying to look up. It just doesn't feel like I can. Maybe I have gotten into yet another depression. That would make it my.. 20th, or something like that. I always notice right around the time that it becomes impossible for me to move, even if I'm starving and I know there's food in my kitchen.

My voice isn't what it has been.. I'm worried about that. My voice is all I have, at the end of the day, and when it doesn't sound right, I get worried, and I stop wanting to sing, because it only makes me feel good, when it sounds good.
I'm running out of breath, and my throat feels dry, no matter what and how often I drink. I'm pitching all the time, and not hitting the notes the way I want to. It makes me so sad when I'm not good at what I'm best at. (Does that sentence make sense?)

So.. yeah. I guess I'll keep writing, and try to eat more than one piece of bread per day.. try to not eat so much sugar, and try not to buy so much crap, so I can save up all the money I need.

Hoping life will feel better soon.